to See. 

We see what we want to see
and the world's gravity of oppression has caused us to see each other with edges and ill intent.

We see what we want to see.
And fear tends to be our main lens.
We fear what we may lose -
Instead of what could be gained -
We fear what we don't know -
Instead of what we could begin to understand.

I like to imagine better -
More possible -
More aligned to the path of liberation and light and love -

So I wonder,
What would happen If we could learn to soften the edges,
The gaze,
The thoughts,
The glares,
And see each other for who it is we truly are -
Not the way the world has caused you to see some reflection of what we want to see -
The enemy -
The foe -
The parts and pieces that do not belong -
And we bypass the ally
And opportunity to expand.

I get it.

I understand and dont understand all at the same time.

Past impressions,
Dominant culture,
Unhealed Trauma,
Leadership with ill intention living outloud and celebrated,
Resistance to BLM,
Loss without space to grieve,
Manipulation,
Groundlessness,
Greed,
Stories suppressed, unheard, and forget -
And so many unfortunate and unjust moments in between.

There is great pain here.


How could there not be?

And it lands In our bodies.
Which limits our minds.
And narrows our focus.

No separation.

And until these unjust and unfair pains are held tenderly,
The thorns removed -
The wounds healed -
The relationships repaired -
And our bias and beliefs are challenged with that mad and rad liberation of love,
And we see each other -
And Hear each other -
Beyond what we think it is we want to see -
And see the living breathing being in front of our eyes -
And all the story and struggle and sacredness pulsating through our veins -

Welp,

We will continue to see what our pain and past impressions wants us to see,

And bypass all that freeing and spacious “big sky” picture of whats possible when we come together into union and liberation.

I tend to be Pollyanna and hold this picture of paradise close to my eyes and heart.
I see it and feel it and want it more than anything.
It is why I do the work I do and sit in my shit as much as I can.
And challenge myself to be better.
Not just for the single lens focus of me,
But for the multidimensional focus of all that is possible when we begin to see each other and ourselves with a little more clarity,
And a little more compassion,
And a little more love.

I feel and truly believe that is what shifts our perspective and opens our mindsets into seeing all that is is we truly need to see.

Today, I needed to see myself from another lens.
I did not ask for this gift of great discomfort and challenge,
Yet it was given to me -
So I receive it,
And receive it gratefully.
I was given an opportunity to check in with accountability,
lean in to understand,
and see beyond what my intentions allow me to see myself as.

I was given an opportunity to know myself in a way I haven't truly held before.
To know my presence,
To know my pace,
To know whats possible when we call each other in and instead of out -
Mutually.

I was challenged in a way that gives me growth -
and I am thankful for that.
I needed to see something I wasn't seeing.
But I do now. And where I may or may not agree,
It doesn't matter i can begin to understand myself and all who walk this world with me through forgiveness -

So I pour it in and share it out -

Every direction -
Every dimension -
To Everyone
and everything.

I forgive the world for making us enemies and teaching us to go against our brother and sisters. I forgive the illusion of separation and the obstacles it creates.

I forgive myself for not knowing what I didn't know when I didn't know it.
My ignorance. My hypocrisies. And the ignorance and disturbances I have created.

I forgive our people for calling out when we could call in.
We have been canceled - ceased - separated - suppressed - in many ways teaching us to forget who it is we are and who it is we are to each other.

I forgive so I can see.
Beyond the mud -
Beyond the limits -
Beyond the separation -

There's an abundance awaiting.
Liberation
S A M A D H I

Can you see it?
Can you imagine it?
Can it please possibly be?

I see it.
I feel it.
and it reminds me I still have great work to day and I can do this work knowing where it leads.

We continue on -
No effort goes wasted -
May we forgive -
May we remember -
May we see all that we need to see,

Light and love,
keri